scribbles.
- -there’s a reason that everyone is something. there’s a reason that someone is physically deformed, there’s a reason why someone has limitations, there’s a reason why someone is with that person, there’s a reason why this person acts like this, and there’s a reason why people feel the way they feel. i’m one who was and probably still is dumb sometimes to judge someone or to talk about someone in a not so positive way. but over the past couple hours or so, i’ve thought to myself and realized that it’s a never ending cycle. people judge me, others, and whatever. but i want to change that bad habit of mine. im starting to understand that there is a reason for everything and to be more understanding of why what happens, happens.
- -i looked at myself in the mirror. what did i see? i saw me. i saw everything i liked and disliked about me. one of the things i saw is that i’m a sensitive guy. probably over-sensitive at times. i’ve been told to man up, quit being a pussy, wuss, toughen your skin up, stop taking everything up the butt. that or there’s just a misunderstanding between the two parties. maybe you don’t know where i’m coming from. or maybe i just don’t know where you’re coming from. maybe you don’t really know me. maybe this maybe that. whatever. i’m doing me. whether you like it or not, i’m doing me. do what you want, say what you want to say, it’s not going to change me, it’ll just reflect the type of person you really are. do whatever makes you happy. but that’s something i’m not/don’t want to be a part of. God made me this way and i’m very proud of it.
- -leads me to my next thought. with life in the way, i haven’t really been following my path with God. i’ve put God on the back burner because i’ve been caught up with school, work, social life, etc. recently i went to the CI counselor/staff training. and a video opened my eyes to something. i prolly stopped “listening” because of all the “noise” going on in my life. haven’t really gone to church lately, but this past week.. when i did go, i felt right. i felt rejuvenated. i’m excited to start going back and let God take the reigns. i’m excited for ci to come. i want to get the ball rolling on this. i need to let go and let God.
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scribble v. - to write or draw hastily or carelessly.
i apologize if all of this doesn’t make sense. but i mean who reads these long bodies of text anyways? lol
God Bless.
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p.s. im not at all depressed or anything, just jumbled up thoughts. lol
